It’s a New Year

I finished up 2016 with 823km under my belt. My first full year of running, and quite the improvement over my 168km total for 2015!

My longest single run for 2016 was 21.2km, and I clocked the most kilometres during March, April, and December – just over 100km in those months!

The winter season arrived but that didn’t hold me back from continuing with my training. I had all my layers ready, and my best purchase ever was the IceSpikes I got for my shoes.


The IceSpikes allow me to stomp my way through the iciest of conditions without slipping, it’s amazing! (There is nothing more frustrating than having to waddle your way through a winter run!)

Then for Christmas we got a treadmill – which was the best surprise ever! This allowed me to squeeze in quick runs at any time of day over the busy holiday season – and probably the only way I would have been able to keep up with my training over Christmas/New Years!


Because I was able to keep up with my training, I decided to sign up for my first winter race in January: 10k at the Richmond Road Races. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined being able to PR my 10k time in the winter, but I did!! Such an amazing feeling!


My training on the treadmill shows me running at a much slower pace than when I’m outside on the roads, despite the fact that it feels like a much harder workout. I sweat buckets working out on the treadmill! But all those indoor runs must’ve done some good after all. I don’t take 10:1 walking breaks on the treadmill, so I definitely noticed an improvement in my endurance, which may have been the key factor to my faster race time.

Another challenge that I decided to take part in was Run Ottawa’s January run streak, where we run every day for the entire month of January.


Because I have the treadmill now, I knew hopping on for a quick 1 mile run those days in between training sessions would be easy for me.

I amazed myself by being able to hang on to my running streak for those first three weeks ..but then was hit hard by an unexpected bout of depression.

I could feel it coming on in the weeks prior, but because there was always so much going on I would try to distract myself with the next task or activity. And at night I would blast tv shows into my head until I fell asleep so that I didn’t have a chance to think too much and trigger that downwards spiral. Every morning I would wake up with a start, as if someone had sent a current of electricity through my heart. Just a pure jolt of anxiety to start my day. It was inevitable.. Each day I became more and more anxious and it became harder to repress. I stopped being able to sleep and even eat, and dropped a good 20 pounds in the span of a few weeks. Then one day I woke up with the darkest of thoughts swirling around in my head, and I knew I was done fighting. I had reached my absolute lowest point.


The next couple of weeks are a blur for me as I immediately fell ill with a fever too, which lasted for a few days, then developed into bronchitis; lots of sleeping, lots of blasting sounds into my head so that I wouldn’t have the chance to think or feel. I went back on medication to help bring me back, but it didn’t feel like anything was helping this time around. I had never hit such a low like this before. And I was wracked with such guilt and shame because all I could do was sleep and lie in bed for days on end.

I don’t know how many other runners out there also suffer from debilitating mental health issues.. How you manage it and how it impacts your training. But for me I was at the point where I was just done and couldn’t picture myself getting back into running ever again. Having just become a member of Run Ottawa’s Team Awesome, My Peak Challenge, and Oiselle Volée, I felt like I had failed and let everyone down. I had also signed up for the full marathon clinic at the Running Room and had already missed the first two weeks of training. I felt like I was in way over my head and should probably back out of everything.

Fast forward to today and I’m doing a lot better than I was before. Though I’m taking on a whole lot less than I had been previously. Trying to keep myself from getting too overwhelmed; trying to stay stable. My life is very simple these days.

I did venture out to join my marathon clinic for a run yesterday evening, however. I quite enjoyed the outing, though I still feel incredibly terrified by this challenge I’ve set for myself – marathon ready by June when I’ve only run a half marathon distance once?!? But I guess it doesn’t hurt to try and see how long I can keep up, while at the same time benefiting from the training.

I feel my enthusiasm for running coming back, and so I’m just going to take things one day at a time.

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Team Awesome Inspo!

On my run this morning I decided to go on a little adventure through Blackburn Hamlet, which is where I grew up. They have lots of nature trails through parks that are beautiful this time of year. The weather was just perfect to get a long run in too, so I set out with no particular route or distance in mind.

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During this run, I couldn’t help but think of all the inspiring runners that have helped get me to where I am today. Being accepted into Run Ottawa’s Team Awesome for Tamarack Ottawa Race Weekend 2016 gave me the opportunity to get to know many great runners that inspire me daily with their posts and enthusiasm! I would never be as motivated to push myself to do more if it weren’t for this group of people. They are amazing, not only during races but in their daily runs as well.

Looking at Ashley’s Instagram will make you want to go running RIGHT NOW. Every day. Always. Her running routes are beautiful, she covers such great distances, and she is just so fast and enthusiastic and graceful!

Jayme’s blog will sweep you up in the excitement of qualifying for The Boston Marathon. You will want to do it too! And her posts will encourage you to reach your dream goals. Her strength, dedication and passion for running is just awe-inspiring.

On that note, following Leanne’s blog as she prepares for once-in-a-lifetime expeditions into ultra marathons goes to show all the great places you can venture into, and that the possibilities for challenging yourself as a runner are endless.

Noel is mind-blowing as a runner too. I never knew human legs were capable of going as fast as his! He has been passionate about running all his life and is truly an elite! Following Noel’s Twitter will keep you up to date on all the latest running news, articles, and products as well as his adventures now as a ‘Running Dad’.

I love reading Rebecca’s blog too. She’s done races of all distances and also coaches track at school. Her posts provide wonderful insight on her experiences as a runner – I particularly love reading about all the races she’s completed and live vicariously through her experiences.

I could go on! Suffice it to say, I am so pleased with my experience as a member of Team Awesome this year, the new friends I’ve made, and how much it has shaped me as a runner.

And right now until this Friday the 21st, Run Ottawa is accepting new applications for the 2017 edition of Team Awesome! So I just had to share. If you’re into running and would enjoy meeting other passionate runners, you should give it a try! 2017 is going to be a big year in the capital as well, in celebration of Canada’s 150th anniversary, so I have a feeling this year will be like no other!

Tamarack Ottawa Race Weekend 2016

On August 20th, 2015 I signed up for my first race of 2016: Tamarack Ottawa Race Weekend. I was told it was the biggest and most eagerly anticipated race of the year! The colder weather was coming and I knew I needed something to keep me motivated to continue training through the long winter months ahead. This race was going to be it!

In addition, in November I also applied to become a member of Run Ottawa’s Team Awesome. This was something I had only just caught wind of from my Twitter feed, right on the last day they were taking submissions! So I quickly typed up my responses and sent them in, just on the off-chance that they could use a newbie runner like me as an ambassador for Race Weekend. Man, was I ever shocked when I got the email back telling me that I had been chosen to be part of Team Awesome!

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Then I really knew I had to work hard for this race, just to show them they made a good choice in picking me! 🙂

I even ended up joining a 10k clinic at the Running Room in March. Initially it was in the hopes of improving my 5k times, but I enjoyed running the greater distances so much that I soon decided to upgrade to 10k as my new course distance for Race Weekend!

Fast forward to May 28th, and after weeks of cold weather we found ourselves in the midst of a typical Ottawa spring-to-summer transition, smack-dab in the middle of a 40°C (104°F) heatwave.

The 10k was slated to begin at 6:30pm, which allowed me the opportunity to sleep in and have a relaxed day at home. I was feeling a bit antsy as I waited, so instead of standing anxiously by the front door I decided to help set up the pool for the kids to splash around in.

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However, due to the extreme weather conditions, the starting time of the race ended up being pushed half and hour later into the evening when it would hopefully be a bit cooler out.


There was a lot of concern surrounding race weekend as this was not only the first real heat here in Ottawa since last September, but also that all of our training beforehand had taken place during cold conditions! There was talk of cancelling the races altogether, but thankfully shifting the start times to cooler parts of the day (plus all the community rallying together to provide plenty of water to drink and for the cooling stations) saved the day!


I brought my mum over to help watch the boys and Paul took me – in all my running gear – on the back of his motorcycle into town. There were a lot of road closures and traffic so we figured the motorcycle would make it easier to navigate through everything. He was easily able to pull over by a sidewalk behind City Hall where everyone was congregating to let me off.

I got there in good time, contrary to my habit of always arriving late. My first stop was to meet up with my Running Room group by the eagle statue at Confederation Park (I had to Google it beforehand) for a group photo.

I began to feel a little anxious as I was the only one carrying a bag that still needed to be checked into the baggage check. Once I had found my group I realized that I didn’t want to lose them again!

After we took a few photos, me and a couple of girls from the 10k clinic headed to City Hall for a bathroom break, and they also accompanied me to the baggage check, allowing us to all stick together which I greatly appreciated. Turns out that the baggage check was the “sweat tent” behind City Hall that Paul had dropped me off in front of when we arrived. *facepalm*

As we headed to our corral we were reunited with a few more members from our clinic again. We stood together chatting while we waited to be unleashed upon the race course.

It was during this time that the dark clouds overhead released a brief but torrential downpour and we were utterly drenched! By the time we started running it had stopped, but my shoes were so full of water that they were ‘squelching’ with every step. Plus, the heat and humidity remained so I continued to be a soggy mess for the rest of the evening, haha.

The four of us decided to stick together as we ran, as we had trained together and were all about the same pace anyway. One thing we discovered during run club is that it is so much more enjoyable to run with friends!

As we passed by the 1 kilometre marker I heard an eruption of applause and looked over to my left to see the elite 10k runners already headed for the finish line! My jaw dropped and I had to shake myself back into focusing on my run. It was so amazing to see them that I just wanted to stop, watch, and take a few photos!!

We continued on as a group, through streets lined with cheering crowds. People spraying water at us to help keep us cool (I’m already soaked tho). People playing music and holding up the most amazing signs to help motivate the runners.

I had almost finished off one of the two water bottles I carried on my belt by the time we reached the first water station, so I made sure to go over and grab a cup! It was cool and refreshing and just what I needed. We also ended up making a quick stop at the bathrooms, but luckily there weren’t too many people in line at the first set of porta-potties. It was at this time I decided against just continuing on without my group because I felt it was more important for us to stick together. Plus, it was just so crowded out there on the course (we were constantly trying to weave our way around people) and I had serious doubts that I could achieve a PR on this race anyway. Instead, I opted to enjoy the company of friends and make this an experience to remember. We took selfies while we waited, and within 3 minutes we were back on the course! Our legs stronger and faster too thanks to the little break!

The course was beautiful, along the Ottawa River with the sun setting in the horizon. At one point a rainbow even appeared in the sky!

Towards the end, the other ladies in our little group started to feel it and pulled back a little. That’s when Chelsea and I decided to push forward together in an effort to get this hot run over with, lol! We stopped pacing ourselves and just went for it; weaving our way through the other runners. As we hit the last 400m I was pretty sure I was either going to pass out cold or vomit everywhere, but I could see the finish line and kept pushing on!

What a surprise it was for me to see my husband in the crowds during those last few metres as well! He had no idea when exactly I’d finish and had just arrived when he caught a glimpse of me coming down the course! He called out to me and I waved, so excited to see him as I continued powering my way to the finish line! It really meant a lot to me to have him there for that moment.

Chelsea and I ended up finishing the 10k in 1 hour and 16 minutes! Not my fastest 10k but definitely my most enjoyable!!!

We waited beside the finish line for the rest of our girls, who arrived within minutes of us. Then we all walked out together, where we were given water and people sprayed more mist at us, lol. Next we received our coveted 10k medals which had a spinny maple leaf in the centre! Fanciest medal ever!!!

Lots of photos were taken and we picked up our bagels and bananas before reuniting with our family members on the other side.

I ended up feeling pretty nauseated and dizzy for the rest of the evening, but was good as new the next day, thankfully!

My first experience at Tamarack Ottawa Race Weekend was so amazing! I’m so happy I took the 10k clinic as I learned so much and made these amazing new friends that I can run with. Even better is that we will continue to run together at Run Club even now that it’s over, so I have that to keep me going. 🙂

I’m not too sure what is next for me. To continue on doing 5k races for the rest of the summer feels a bit anticlimactic now, lol! But I think doing the 10k training program again will help me improve the quality of my runs. For example, now I can work on continuous runs in place of 10:1s and maintaining a good momentum. So, begrudgingly, I am going to chill and keep my training at 10k for now. Save my half-marathon glory for another year! 🙂